my dad has this crazy ass huge camera lens so we went out during the eclipse last night and got maybe one of my favorite photos i’ve ever had a hand in taking
i never expected byler, ronance or steddie to happen. but for a show that handled robin being a lesbian so well in s3 (although i do have some things to complain about that, i was satisfied with it because her coming out scene with steve was beautiful), i sure was fucking disappointed. the duffers are sick for thinking any of the shit in vol2 is good representation.
to tell us will was going to come out, which is a HUGE deal, and then leave his queerness simply as subtext. he never confesses, he never says “i am gay”. instead we get a heartfelt monologue about his feelings for mike that only serves for mileven development.
don’t get me wrong. i loved his scene with jonathan. but we don’t need implied representation. we need more characters who actually say they are lgbtq+ onscreen.
as for robin… to have her side-lined and with a romantic partner that is basically her clone is just disgusting for me. i wish i could have liked vickie because i love amybeth but i just don’t. like, her bf broke up with her and suddenly she likes robin? out of the blue? and we’re supposed to love that? no. fuck that.
it’s 2022. the duffers deserve to get a lot of shit for treating their queer characters like that. fuck them. there’s no excuse.
actually i love growing older and learning how i work as a person like realizing what kinds of fabrics feel best on my skin or what brand of yogurt i like best or how I want to be touched. watching myself change, enjoying brussel sprouts when I used to hate them as a child, understanding why I got angry in that one conversation 10 years ago… there are so many mysteries inside me that i have yet to unravel and there will always be more and sometimes i think maybe its all worth it
Btw, if you have not had tragedy dropped on you before, grief does fuck you up in unexpected and physical ways. If you can’t sleep or sleep more than expected or have more or reduced appetite, or energy goes weird— your brain just had a bunch of emotions dropped on it and sometimes it reacts by hitting every button in your brain. It will pass. Just try to not get too frustrated with yourself.
It’s also fine if you feel normal. Grief literally hits everybody differently, and some people are made to be able to to keep the farm going the day after a death, and some of us turn into sleepless gargoyles and get really into trying to help, and some of us are just unspeakably sad. Grief is weird. Be kind to yourself.
